Random in Nerutral...

IN A RANDOM ATTEMPT TO MOTIVATE MYSELF I WILL BE UNLEASHING THE FURY THAT IS CAPS LOCK! no, but it does help for a smile or too :)

life for me is in neutral it seems. I'm halfway through the year and i actually feel like i accomplished something... sports kick up again in a month and my sprained ankle will have hopefully recovered. I'm taking jewelry again in school but this time its jewelry 2 (I'm switching into a jewelry 3 class cause my teacher is that awesome). and the music is exploding. I'm learning blues piano improv, and still playing guitar. did i upload a picture of my new guitar yet?? i must find one.... hang on a sec...



ok now imagine THAT on a crazy, demented (almost) 16 year old and you get the big picture :)

on to the greatest news of the day? that huge freaking blizzard that's creeping across the northern US is hitting in T-minus 1 hour and 28 minutes and we are already under critical alert! there is no school tomorrow and I'm planning on catching an early train into NYC, running a couple of errands and making it back upstate before the 3rd rail trains are put out of commission by the weather! fun, right? well it'll be an adventure if i don't make it out on time... ill be stranded... wow. you know? that actually sounds cooler... hm.....

anyways, I'm going to get back to pondering and editing my NaNo story! i finished it this year and have been sporadically editing it every chance i get!

~you only Liv once...

forgive me im trying to find my calling im calling at night

lalalaaaa im sort of here, sort of nowhere. blogging holds less of an interest for me these days!! :( im sad about that! i miss wanting to post anything and everything!!!

whatever. life hasnt changed much. still avoiding contact with my parents, still loving music and sports and my friends. kinda branching out a lil more into the arts. trying to fix my awesome little welding statue which broke, and well, yeah! thats about it haha

field hockey has been over for months. still want to play a little though. might go to a few indoor sessions. softball is in full-on training though. tryouts in exactly one month from monday... (O.O) very afraid... i want to make varsity but with my injury record, my chances shrink every day :( ill give it my best, what else can i do? hm..... our little band fell apart, though i still hang with bass-guy alot. like i practically live at his house and his parents love me so i usually crash there XD

OOH! there was this NOH8 campaign in NYC the other day and i went with him and a couple of his friends to have our pictures taken! it was awesome! NO H8 IN MY ST8! which is a total lie, unfortunately... there was some religious biggot across the street (cause the cops relocated him from the actual block we were lined up on) and looked like he wanted to throw bibles at us... jerk... at least the bus driver who stopped behind him had a sense of humor and had a rupauls drag race ad on the side of the bus :) good for a laugh every once in a while.

so if any of you still have enough patience to stop by, i welcome it! haha and i know i cant make up for all the ground ive lost with ya, and i cant swear to even post regularly at all, but im sort of-not really-kinda here-kinda not-crazy-unmotivated. take your pick :)

~you Liv once...

(and yes, the title is lyrics from an all time low song...)

nano time...

NANOWRIMO IS UPON US!!! writing buddy me: Livie23!!!! O.o (and again im apologizing for my crappy long-absences from blogger!)

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Back in studyhall, everything is crazier than usual. tonight is 'Parents Night' at my school, and I'm trying to distract my parents with as much news as possible to make them forget to go to it! Good news, Bad news, it doesn't even matter to me that much anymore, just that they wont remember to come to my classes and actually meet my teachers. I hate parents night, so i started talking to them about my jam packed weekend:

Saturday: I'm planning to go to this big softball tournament out on Long Island because my friend's team is short of players and i said i might be able to be an extra. then I'm goin to see zombieland for the second time with my best friend, who hasn't seen it yet, and then i have to go to this little family gathering because some of my step-mom's freaky aunts are going to Ireland and we're having a little 'party' for them

Sunday: honestly, just band practice and homework, but that takes up ALOT of time :)

ALSO, thank god my mom is leaving for her annual business trip because she just figured out why i avoid the topic of homework: ESSAYS. i have about three of them overdue and my grade is steadily declining... i just cant write an essay worth ANYTHING... its DEPRESSING because i can do NaNoWriMo, and blog, but i cant write a 2 page, double spaced essay... :/

IN OTHER NEWS: there was SUPPOSED to be a pep rally today, but it poured, so I'm having an equally fun time watching: the cheerleaders complain about how much time it took them to do their makeup or whatever, the football people groaning because they don't get to appreciate the cheerleader's slutty performance, and most importantly: EARLY DISMISSAL :D

The football team which is undefeated, plays it's undefeated rival today, so that should be an interesting game. it doesn't start until 11, SO, ill probably be tired as hell tomorrow when i wake up at 7... I have a FH game against OUR rival team today. we are going to get our asses kicked just like last year......

I must go and get started on my TON of homework now that studyhall is almost over :)

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Ive been reduced to study hall posting, which sounds like a bad thing, but actually, this ought to keep me posting regularly for a long time :) I'm feeling much better today, thank god

Our school has new arrivals! The German exchange student plan has activated yet again, and we have 16 new students for the next couple of weeks! (I'm still trying to figure out who they exchanged with, because as far as i can tell, all of the Juniors are still here, but i don't know all the seniors) We have, Lara who comes to field hockey practice with me because her host family is the Junior goalie's, and Billie, who is in my Photo class.

Speaking of FH, the other team chickened out yesterday, so i really did stay in class for absolutely nothing!!! i was pretty mad about that, because i could have gone home after 4th period, but insisted on staying for the game. :/

I wore the most outrageous thing coming home from practice yesterday: cleats and black shin guards under gray sweatpants. a black t-shirt with a fancy silk blouse over it with all the buttons undone, my hair hanging in a messy pony-tail with a little streak of sun-highlighted hair blowing in front of my neon-green rimmed aviators every three seconds. my mom had a fit, but in my opinion i looked awesome, and i plan on wearing that for picture day :)

My brothers are apparently having a contest: WHO CAN ANNOY LIV MORE? they're pretty tied... Nick loaded a virus onto my computer that almost wiped my hard drive, and Gabe is throwing wild, rampaging fits every other second!! I'm working on a way to get back at them now, i believe i saw an extra air-horn in the field hockey closet?? (evil grin)

i realize i forgot to end my post the newer way this time, but i really don't remember exactly how that is... oh well. it was worth a shot.

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Sick Days

As the year continues, it brings with it it's problems.

Problem #1: My Health
So far this year, I've already taken 3 sick-days from school for a cold/headache, and according to my sports doctor, I'm extremely lucky to have not broken my leg during the last few days of preseason. right now, i should be home sleeping and having some soup, but instead, because further sick days will require a doctors note, my head is pounding, I'm nauseous and, I'm in school.

Problem #2: My schoolwork/Homework
It's early on in the year but already the laziness of the fourth term is settling in me. when i was out, i neglected to do any of the assignments my friends gave me from class, so here i am in first period study-hall blogging away instead of actually doing my work.

Problem #3: my practicing habits
I don't practice regularly. at all. for music? ill practice whenever i can remember. when working out, ill only practice when one of my friends is there pushing me. the only practicing i do regularly is for sports because it's required...

and getting that off my chest, i can move on to better things...

today we have a game in field hockey, though i doubt ill be able to play. everyone tells me that they need me there, but they just want me there to make them look better. as long as we're not playing some rival school, I'm leaving at lunchtime. the freshie goalie can take it.

currently, my wardrobe is a disaster area. my dad thought it'd be a nice gesture to clean my closet, and i only realized this morning when i shed the sweats and t-shirt i usually wear when I'm sick to something more suitable for classes. i refuse to look like crap in school. anyway, apparently, he moves half my clothes to my brothers closet because 1- my closet is WAY overstuffed, and 2- he doesn't use his; SO i spent about half an hour frantically throwing clothes around my room looking for this one shirt.....

FINALLY. the NyQuil is kicking in; my mom discovered it in the medicine cabinet, and i discovered its mildly alcoholic, so I'm hiding my eyes behind $5 green-rimmed aviators from Canal street.

well, that's the pathetic, short update on my life right now, and ill probably post more tomorrow. it sounds like ill be home again.

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after multiple vacations, i am alive and well. well sort of...

Preseason has started up, aka HELL ON EARTH. i swear, if you can survive preseason, you shall be in the best shape of the year, unless youre me. I got through the first week, and most of the second week before getting hurt. (Which is a new record!) i managed to survive the 'peak' days, as i like to call them, when the coaches push limits, and kids are likely to pass out. our peak this year was 3 miles and 100 yard sprints. i pulled through that. the day AFTER, we ran 2 1/2 miles, and on my 8th lap, my leg collapsed under me. after that it felt like i was getting stabbed in the front of the shin with every jogging step i took. i still managed to run the mile and a half the day after that because i didnt want to be benched. the day after that i could barely walk. its been getting progressively worse, and has now affected the other leg as well. my x-rays came back clean, through the doctors think its a stress fracture more than shin splints. i hope theyre wrong... i go for an MRI next weekk, and i can update you on that, but for now, im riding bench for a while...

i have not completed ONE thing i was assigned to do over the summer for classes. not one. my procrastination has reached critical levels, and it must be dealt with soon because school for me starts on the 10th... it should be pretty easy, i mean, 500 word summaries? PLEASE. for those of you who know this, i did NaNoWriMo last year, and i can clear 30000 words a day. (on a GOOD day, on bad day more like 7000, but still) so it should be a snap. damn.... there i go again telling myself i can do it in no time, and pushing it off again!!!

My mom, is currently flipping shit. some of you may remember my bassist friend? well, instead of me crashing on his couch as usual (i occasionally stay over when we're u watching movies until 130), he insisted on crashing on MY floor. my mother was unaware that i stay over at his house semi-regularly, and just had a mini meltdown when she found him asleep in my room... not one of my smartet ideas. if she doesnt throw something at him when he wakes up and leaves, im pretty sure we'll have to meet somewhere OUTSIDE my city from now on.

Went to a Killers concert at PNC bank arts theater in NJ on wednesday! it was my best friend's birthday present, and we screamed out lungs out for 4 hours. completely epic. the opened with are we dancers and encored with when we were young. just thought id add that since it was so amazingly awesome :)

warming up my vocabulary and writing skills for NaNoWriMo again this month. Im FINISHING it this year if it kills me! :) thats about it for now...

Current:
song: wake me up when september ends - Green Day
mood: electrified
inspirational quote: "It's not about who youve known the longest, it's who came and never left your side" - unknown
funny quote: "You ever have an nightmare and then decide to tell somebody about it, and halfway through your explanation you realize you're retarded?" - unknown

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CIVILIZATION AT LAST

I am ALIVE after 2 weeks in the green minivan from hell! it was actually a really cool trip! we even managed to swing by the mall of America on our drive home and IT WAS FREAKING HUGE. like, the biggest mall I've been to before that was the Palisades mall in Nyack. I dunno if you guys have heard of it? well, you ca fit like 3 of the palisades malls into the mall of America. i took TONS of pictures, and we saw all these crazy things in the middle of nowhere!

Unfortunately, my phone broke after the first day, and it WAS BRAND NEW. i was extremely pissed off to say the least, i mean, COME ON! i had that phone for a WEEK, and then IT GETS WET! it was the brand new blackberry curve, and had basically EVERYTHING on it. NOW, i have to wait for the insurance place to mail my new one. focusing on silver lining for a second now, it shows me how dependant the average highschooler is on texting. i was calling the two people who's numbers were on my brother's phone, and they answered like they didn't know how to actually have a conversation over the telephone! so even when i get a phone again, I'm gonna lay off texting for a while and see how that goes...

as Sydney said: parents having blogs is cool, but parents having facebooks is weird.

not too sure i agree on the first one, cause as long as they remember they have a blog, they might try to check up on mine. (You'll know they did if this post disappears) but parents having facebooks IS FREAKING CREEPY! they're constantly commenting on stuff, and checking up on what i write. i love em, but I NEED SPACE! seriously.

Onto new things:

I must start my work for school. i do this every year. i push stuff off till the very last minute and end up pulling n all-nighter on labor-day weekend doing all the stuff i should have been doing all summer. i have to write a monologue, a book-report, and summarize 110 articles from the new England journal of medicine...

I am taking ANOTHER vacation! (this one with my mom) To MIAMI! sweetness. I'm trying to get i touch with some of my old camp friends from there and see if we can hang out together. that would be awesome.

Sports start in exactly 7 days, and i must start training. i have to be able to run 3 1/2 miles by then, and i have to be faster than the person i ran with last year. we ended the season running miles at the same pace, and we were the fastest on the JV team. now there is ONE spot open on varsity, and the fastest JV player will get moved up early. :D

I am trying to learn french! i suck at pronunciation, but I'm learning the words. it's actually quite random, because i was listening to a song, and one verse was in french, and the next day i woke up and i said to myself "I will be able to know what that is if it kills me." SO i bought a french to English dictionary, and started writing vocab words down. i can say a few sentences i french now, count to 50, and name 30 different things in different cases. i am proud of myself because school hasn't even started yet, and my language major is Latin, my language minor is Italian, and French never even crossed my mind.

Guitar lessons start in September and i must practice. i have slacked too much, and my band will be playing gigs this year IF IT KILLS ME. like i said, i was over at a friends house a while back, and we wrote a song. we've got to get the whole band together and practice our butts off for this!

That's about it for now. ill probably post something funny from Miami, but we'll only be there for a few days! :)

Current:
song: Tree Hugger - Antsy pants and Kimya Dawson
mood: emotional
inspirational quote: "Life's journey is not to arrive safely at the grave in a well-preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways totally worn out shouting 'Holy shit, what a ride!'"
funny quote: "Dude? how easy do you think it is to break into the zoo? i need to see some penguins like, right now." - anonymous

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SOUTH DAKOTA!!!

Ok, the reason i seemingly havent posted in FOREVER is because my family has dragged me on a cross country road trip! and before you think that this is actually a really cool thing, let me describe it in detail:

We spent on average no less than 3 hours in a green minivan every day. we stay in cheap motels and crappy 'family resort' campgrounds. (aka trailer parks) my little brothers are sitting behind me in the back of the car ad are always fighting over some stupid thing or another. my baby sister is sitting next to me in the other bucket seat and when she's not asleep, she's screaming bloody murder. my dad andmy step-mom are in the front seats arguing over the internet connections that are few and far between and blasting weird music that was popular when the 80's were in a bad way.

it sucks

BUT

If you want to hear THEIR side of the trip, you can visit THEIR blog (yes i know its creepy for parents to have blogs) at YELLOWSTONEORBUST.blogspot.com

guarantee you its probably the opposite of how i feel about the whole trip. so until the trip is over, my posting will be short and irregular, but im near mount rushmore now, so ive gotta go!

Current:
song: Loose Lips - Kimya Dawson
mood: slightly irritated and tired
inspirational quote: "The sun never sets on a badass" - annonymous
funny quote: "I always manage to enter a convertaion at the wrong time, and the of course, my dirty mind takes over." - annonymous

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100th Post! (Among Other Things)

First of all, I have to say WHOOHOO! Ive reached my 100th post. I haven't had alot of time for posting this past week, so let me catch you up.

In welding I have finished my first little sculpture, and although the lighting really sucks in this picture, I have no other pictures, and no way of taking any more for a few days, and i want to know what you think, so let me know! The tree and it's branches are made out of twisted iron, while the gold tips of the branches are bronze and flux. the little structure to the left is made out of stainless steel and has a little hold plasma-cut through as if to give you a view of the tree without being able to reach it. I'm exceptionally proud that i FINALLY managed to weld the branches onto the tree without burning my fingers all the way off. =]

In softball we've played kings bridge and ossning. we beat both of them! =] the kings bridge field was the same one we played on last summer. its a small, sad, but proud lot field next to a highway in the Bronx. the dugouts have tin roofs and have holes where you can push pebbles through and watch them clink down a small hill to the freeway, but it's a homey place. I like it, despite everyone on my team freaking out about it's conditions. I was warming up the pitcher in the bullpen and a wild pitch went over the fence i stood and watched it disappear under car after car as until it fell into a drain. i actually have a photo of one of the dugouts and home plate. It was taken a long time ago, so the dugouts are blue. now they're green.

Ossning was a home game. I was out in left field for most of it. it was very uneventful. since nothing was happening, my coach took me out and put a rookie out to learn the position. I'm moving up into another league next year, and she's going to be filling my spot. i relaxed after that. I lounged on a bucket of balls next to a returning alumni and we talked about random things for the remaining part of the game.

When we got home, i felt like running. I had to get out of my house, so i threw on a black t-shirt and a pair of basketball shorts, stuck my iPod into my pocket and tied my sneakers on my way out the door. I blasted some rock tune and ran, focusing on keeping my breathing at marathon tempo. After a while I gave up on trying to run around a track and I ran through the highlands neighborhood. It was the time of day between dinner and sunset and there were people everywhere. Old people jogging at a mile an hour, yuppie couples wearing matching tennis outfits walking a toy sized dog, college students running cross country, and groups of kids bouncing a basketball, or tossing around a baseball. it was the time of day where everyone also felt the need to be doing something. I cant even remember how far i ran, but i ran through 17 songs on m iPod before my twitching muscles carried me back up the steps to my house just as the sun started to disappear.

I cooked myself breakfast for dinner and made a strawberry-apricot-banana shake. it was great. i find it funny that i cook better than my cousins who are fully grown and have their own apartments. Dorm life in college will be interesting...

Ive been messing around on my guitar alot, trying to figure out hotel California by the eagles when i heard some new bands on the radio. Note- these all came from different radio stations, and their all VERY different types of music, but from what i heard i like them. have you heard of them, and can you recommend any songs?:

The Darkness
Blindside
The Coral
LP
All Time Low
SFA

Summer is running out for me. I leave for a 2 week vacation with my dad in 2 weeks and I have to complete my summer assignments because when i get back from that, I have 5 days until pre-season starts for field hockey, and then my life is officially over. My mom has been all over me to do my summer schoolwork so it seems like i only have a few hours of ME time left. I have 4 hours in the city with nobody around and no parents on Wednesdays and Thursdays, so i figure ill walk around, get some food, see some sights. hell, Ill ride the subway for 4 hours all over the place if it means i can be alone. I just need some alone time every once in a while. I have to remember to stop in the grand central marketplace, Lilac chocolates makes the best fudge and my little brother is coming home Friday! =D

That's about it for now...

Current:
song: silence - Blindside
mood: confused
inspirational quote: "I don't forgive people because I'm weak, i forgive them because i am strong enough to realize people make mistakes, that people change, and that one action shouldn't define a person for their whole life."
funny quote: "I DIDN'T DO IT! Oh, wait, THAT... Yes,I did do THAT."

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